Death~Its so subtle.

Hi~
So this would be a yesterday's post.
Yesterday I followed mummy,pappy and wallace tagged along to Penang.My mood at that time was blah~~semi-conscious due to flu.But overall it was ok until the traffic started to go messy. Talked a lot yesterday,maybe I was too hyper..haha.This time,it wasn't a shopping trip loike we used to go,instead,we headed for Penang to visit grandma in Penang GH.Yah,she was admitted.

The scenes in that hospital freaked me out, i mean in a serious way.Look, I had never been into a super huge government hospital before except for this puny Kulim GH. LOL...yah ,as usual, the stinging medicine smell lingered around, but there, u could see all those serious patients, especially the bloody ones...and u need to wait for a freaking long time to queue for a few bottles of medicine.i hate to find words to describe there.Grandma was warded in ward 7.went in.That auntie opposite grandma's bed had just returned to God due to kidney failure.Grandma told me. come on, she was okay yesterday. I remained silent.

After seeing those, i think i gotta think twice of my future career, I dont know whether i can cope with these. Till now, i still couldn't accept the fact that that Auntie,is dead.It doesn't look that bad in private hospitals.I don't feel well,maybe its because of the fact that the auntie had passed away.There was this weird feeling that engulfed me the whole night.It's like something depressed,something dark and grey.

Had our dinner in Macalister Rd.LOL...the food there is TEMPTING~haha~my mood that time went okies, at least it went better ,partially it was because of the food,haha,I cant resist food.Then, on the way back, on the Penang Bridge, again, i saw another scene,which left my mum heartbroken. My mood switched back to emo again. What was going on to me.The bridge was jammed , there was an accident.we passed by, yep, another old feeble man, a motorcyclist, was knocked down by another red Iswara, Both of the vehicles were crushed into pieces, shattering evry parts of the steel and glass splinters on the road. There, a motionless old man,lying down on the road. Well, he is dead.It was messy....again, my mood turn worst.Why the heck the car driver knocked him down??The road was so wide.

I pitied him, what about his family, his children,his wife,of maybe his beloved granchildren? can u imagine how would they feel when they received the heart wrenching news that their close-ones had passed away in a car- crash?can they accept it? If I were in their shoes, I would have an emotion breakdown,maybe worse that that.

As I said up there,death,it is really subtle.U cant predict when it will happen to you,or maybe people around you.I am learning hard to accept death, in another way. Call me a freaking fragile, I don't care.I think death is horrible, very very horrible.one second you are alive, you wont know the next moment what condition you will be in.....so,Love life. Live to the fullest,cuz you wont know when u will be taken away by death. I learnt this.